Day 249

It’s Halloween, with an A. I must get over loudly correcting people who think it’s a hollow ween. And gonna is here to stay. Oh well, I guess I still love English when it is spoken well. Not a good month for health progress. Too many short activity days and lack of energy. I have things I want to do without push to get them done. Mind wants stimulation and new opportunities and right now I can’t follow through. 

Day 248

Two deep conversations yesterday. Chris and I talked about the mismatch in our perception of last Monday’s brief remarks as I left with the men to write and sign the complaint. I flinched from her tone and know now that both of us were showing our fear of the lawless neighbor. Barbara and I had an hour of heart-to-heart conversations. She is one of the blessings that come from volunteering. She is my play and dream friend and editor.

Day 247

I will admit that most of the meeting was tedious or was that my headache that made it seem so. Of course, I learned a lot of new info and that keeps me going back. Julia came to visit and brought her humor and energy with her. Nice friendly break. The Giants game was so bad that I went to bed at 8 and slept well. Woke up with no headache. Today I’ll get a long walk between showers.

Day 246

The garbage was removed from across the street. So were the people, in handcuffs. I wonder what was found besides the seven month accumulation of trash. I feel satisfied that I did the right thing by signing the complaint. The neighbors did nothing but gossip and complain. Today is board of supervisors meeting. I will thank Jay for guiding me through the maze of departments. The senior center was given an $11000 anonymous donation to keep the doors open.

Day 245

I want another day like yesterday. I felt connected to Spirit in church, felt physically well, walked twice, and the giants won. Today I will walk before senior center duty and take the dogs for a walk when I come home. It’s the one day this week with a dry forecast. I am ready to move forward in the direction of wellness and participation. I need a new volunteer placement. Some place where I interact with people, not paper.

Day 244

Seven hours without electricity provided the perfect opportunity for the above activity. Except for the first hour of pacing and feeling free fall, the day went by with writing and deep thoughts. I sat on the porch to write since the light was better there. The heavy rain and wind provided an interesting landscape. At times the J street river actually flowed uphill from the gusty winds. Thankfully I did get warm food, warm house, and the Giants game.

day 243

I did get out yesterday and today is doubtful. I don’t mind the rain but the high wind is more than I feel like dealing with today. In fact, I don’t feel like dealing with anything outside today. The agenda is looking inside the house and myself and see what is really there without overlooking the corners and behind the doors. I have questions about how I’m living my life and what I need to do to change course.